This week I've been working with 2 and 3 year old's. Oh, how the Lord is teaching me patience. I also had to sing.. apparently I'm getting over all of my fears here. Thank God you can't go wrong with twinkle-twinkle and old mcdonald. The kids learned how to write three letters yesterday-T, U and V. There is a large upper-case letter that they trace with the help of our hand over theirs. I realized at one point that the T looked like a crucifix so as I guided the child's hand, I prayed for them to one day know the Lord and for them to know the cross that they were tracing. It was only me and God that knew what I was doing and it made it so much more powerful.
I am with all ages of kids in India. In the morning I teach pre-school and in the afternoon I tutor 8 and 9 year olds. The girls in the afternoon are amazing. They just want to be with you and love you and hug you. It's beautiful. It was so heartbreaking though the other day when one of the little girls came up to me with tears rolling down her cheeks. She told me she missed her daddy. It kills me. I look at the world and how messed up it is and I plead for restoration. I'm learning though how little by little the earth can be pieced together by prayer. Nothing could have comforted her in that moment except the love of her ultimate Father who promises to "never leave or forsake" her. So I laid my hands on her fragile little shoulders and started to pray. In seconds I could feel her sobs lessen, her breathing return to normal and a rush of peace flow through her body. Nothing can take away pain like the love of our Father. Nothing. And this isn't just for children, amen? If you see someone hurting, don't be a wimp and keep your prayers to yourself, be bold and go pray for them. There is POWER in the spoken word.
I've been struggling a lot this week with the questions Harvey has been having. He challenges me with the things he deals with,I guess because I deal with the same things. Like why are our friends falling away from God? Why does He allow us to stray? This week God has been revealing answers to me. I've been learning that we are the ones who walk away from God, he NEVER walks away from us. Or.. the sheep walks away from the Shepard, the Shepard NEVER walks away from the sheep. The word sheep has never been a term of endearment. They are dirty creatures. Hundreds of years ago when sheep would wander away from the flock, the Shepard would break its leg and carry the sheep over his shoulders and feed it out of his hand. After the leg heals, the sheep is so in love with the shepard because it was taken care of and watched so closely- It relies on Him now. We were given life to depend on God, so if you feel crippled, it's not without purpose. He wants you to grow to need Him and be fed by Him alone.
I also got the chance to sit out on the porch with Yesupadam today. He is so wise and insightful. It is such a blessing to be here. All the money in the world couldn't pay for the knowledge and wisdom I am receiving at Love-n-Care. Today though we talked about how to counsel our friends... how the most important thing to remember is identifying ourselves with those we are advising. The greatest example of this is Paul in N.T. The bible says that he went to the third heaven..He could have boasted and pridefully thought he was better than everyone else. Instead, he not only relates with the people he writes to, he considers himself the "worst of sinners".
We all go through dry spots in our walk with God. The enemy will tell us that we are worthless, guilty and scum of the earth. But the first thing we need to remember and grasp a hold of is the promise in Romans 8 that there is "no condemnation in Christ". When we remember that God is our "daddy" and loves us unconditionally we can start to loosen the chains that weigh us down by shame and disgrace. It's good to know too that it's not us that is doing wrong, it is our sin. People will tell us to "pray and read the bible"- but honestly sometimes you feel paralyzed, like you can't read scripture and you can't pray. But God says in 2 Chronicles 20 that " the battle is not yours, it is God's". When we feel like the enemy is beating us senseless and there is no air to grasp in the middle of his spiritual suffixation-we need to know not to be afraid or discouraged. All we need to do is "stand firm and see deliverance". Give thanks to God for where you are at.. suffering for God produces righteousness. He will fight the battle for you, and when He wins it for you, you will be like Juduah and Jerusalem and fall down in worship before the Lord. When we think we are alone, we never are. The bible says that God's eyes are "fixed on you". Rest in that, it was a great lesson to learn.
Anyways, that is all for now. I'm learning new things every day. It's amazing the wisdom the Lord is showing me. Continue to pray for me. There are panthers and cheetahs and cockroaches here. Oh Lord help me. ha.
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